This morning, I woke up from a dream, which on a reflection seemed to convey a message. Regardless of the likely responses that the dreams perhaps are a reflection of my own confused state of mind, I would like to share this and hope nonetheless, that some one may actually be able to throw a more profound explanation to this. The dream sequence is like this :
I am at the station and in a train and going somewhere. The train is yet to start, and I am in discussion with a few, as to why the train is delaying it's start. Getting no real answers, I get down, and find to my left, a large number of bogies, and imagine that I am the last from the engine, and the journey itself is in that direction. Someone volunteers to talk to me. What he tells me is very surprising and also revealing.
He tells me I am looking in the wrong direction, and asks me to look right, the direction I have to travel and not the other one. And lo behold, my compartment is just next to the engine, which I had failed to see earlier. And before I could react, the green flag is shown, and I board the train, and the train moves. The stranger does not board, and tells me, smilingly, that he has other things to do. ( perhaps guiding others similarly who are lost)
I now am fully awake, and have this strange feeling; is there really a messge? Perhaps, I have been looking in the wrong direction, all along, and getting nowhere. The message is simple -- like the story of horsemen ( children series) -- just change the direction of my vision, and the journey will start, kind of. It did make sense in a way, but alas, I am back to square one; I do not know which of the directions I am currently facing, that needs a change in course.
While therefore there is this added frustration, in not knowing which one of the various paths I am treading needs a change, I am also mildly happy, that there is this hint of an attempt by ( for want of a better choice) Him, to tell me that I am just there but am continuosly looking in the opposite direction. But since probably the "prarabdam" is too strong to spell out the exact remedy, lucidly, just yet, I will have to wait....... (sigh).
Not a great "samaadhaanam" but still mildly comforting, with the thought, that all is not so bad after all...........But what if I continue to look the other way endlessly, again due to Prarabda?
Any rejoinders?
Love
Vichu
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