4R series Sr no3

ALV
I am reminded of a Oscar Wilde quote " God answers one's prayers when He wants to punish them" Here you are in the noble task of helping/enlightening unlettered/ trying to evolve souls like me, and seemingly He is punishing you, but yet you are actually enjoying it!!!!


Punishment therefore is another of His glorious ways, to make one a pure shining GEM. Diamond after all comes out of black carbon!!

Which brings me to my nagging question, Why is it that I imagine that he has not given adequate resilence to every one His chosen people whom He wishes to punish? And why is it that I feel that so long as my evolution is confined to more of a passive role, than an active one, I am just being hypocritical. For instance, my lack of courage, my financial limitations, my physical unrobustness etc, are all contributing to my inability to offer any meaningful succour to any fellow human being who is in distress, save probably offering prayers for his/her welfare, and wishing from the bottom of my heart that he/she gets better.

And in the midst of an overwhelmingly pervasive decadent selfish society at large, are mere thoughts about evolution of self alone, not amount to blasphemy and sacrelege? And if I am indeed Him, why do I have so much distress, in trying to get answers.

Sorry madam, these are some thoughts triggered primarily by your setback in physical form of a surgery, which was just another confirmation of Oscar Wildes cynical quote, which I am witness to in my long over 60 yrs of real life experience.

Wishing you a very speedy recovery; Get well soon
R :
It is always a pleasure to read what you write. I see myself in you--in your doubt of your own contribution especially. I wonder if you feel hypocritical when you think of yourself as passive because you may be "lying to yourself" about your passivity. You seem quite vital to me, and clearly your contribution is of great value. I suspect that it's welcome in more places than you realize.

I wonder if also, like me, you think of yourself as a person of many questions and not enough answers, but that's not really true either is it? I think we have many answers and that we are just late bloomers, cautiously waiting until we are fully flowered before bringing our questions and answers to the world. I wonder though, since the message we both seem to resonate with is one of love, if the world might be tired of waiting for us while we entertain the distractions of the mind, emotions and body. Perhaps it's time to love out loud.

There is no evolution of the self alone. If you are evloving, you are evolving me at the same time. You are evolving our corrupt governments. You are healing my hand (what else could explain the miracle healing that made my doctor look at me out of the corner of his eye yesterday and ask, "Did I hear you right? You haven't had a moment of pain and you typed 20 pages on Friday??) We reallly are all one, of course, so you are evolving the all with your evolution of the one. But you knew that.

Your humility is inspiring to me. You are showing me a part of myself that I love dearly, and yet still struggle with sometimes. I am like Moses who didn't want to speak on God's behalf because he had a lisp. But it is really our own greatness we fear. It is really our own Godness that terrifies us.

Thank you for helping me. You make me brave.

peace and love,